We've travelled some 10,000 miles, spent a little over an hour travelling by car, 38 hours on three flights, eaten 3 airline meals, walked a few laps during the layovers, tried to bribe the Admiral's club attendant into a stolen shower and still have at least 2 -3 hours of driving to Jinja. We've watched movies, listen to music, played solitaire, and read. FILLER... All the things we've done as we wait. It feels maybe like the end of a pregnancy. Expectation, excitement and responsibility blend into anxious anticipation. Knowing that the next few days and steps have been planned out and set before us by The Lord, yet sensing a fair amount of parent-like responsibility for these "first borns".
Believe us when we say that we know we are not qualified, capable, nor entirely comfortable in this trek. But the God who showed us this need and plan months ago is all of those things. Last week when the adults of our group were stressing about missing passports, I heard 6 year old Deeds in the background singing away, not a care in the world and said aloud, "Boy, life was easier when we were kids! Just knowing that whatever might be going on in the trouble department would naturally be taken care of by the grown-ups in charge". I so wish my faith had the same carefree confidence; complete assured that my FATHER will take care of any contingency. It's humbling for sure to see the markings on the "faith" growth chart set so close together. Forward progress is called success even when it has followed some jet lag.
The last flight each trip is full of humanitarians, missionaries, safari vacationers and returning residents. I don't know if it has been my seat assignments this particular trip, but it seems just a bit different. Every one seems seasoned and comfortable as opposed to the edge do your seat excitement we have experienced previously. Or maybe its my own familiarity now coupled with a good dose of sleep deprivation.
Over and over we have asked The Lord to confirm his hand in Chayah: assure us that we are in His will, steer us away if not. I pray we have heard Him clearly, that He will continue to equip us for this and that as we step into this ministry, we also humbly and appropriately step aside in complete submission to his will.
CHAYAH...new life, new hope...a new journey.
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